I have been fighting a CPS case for over 2 years and am now at the point where my 4 yr. old son will be adopted by his foster mom. My son was taken 01/04/08, he had a temper tantrum on a BART train, and I was accused of shaking him (I didn't). I was taken off the train, I was upset and angry, I cursed, kicked, and screamed. I was sent to a mental hospital for 2 days, then jail for a week. My son was first in foster care in Richmond, and he got his leg broken, there were numerous accusations from the foster mom and the agency she was with while I visited with my son, all of which were false. My son was only removed from her home when she refused to transport him to appointments. There were again accusations against me from the new foster mom, and injuries with him in her care, but injuries and charges are always attributed to me I am not completely innocent during this time. I have missed appointments and been late, I have used poor judgment at times, I left him alone one time at night to go get him something to eat, and I did go with him closer to a moving train to see it up close. I have been very upset and angry with the attempts and tactics that have been used to legally kidnap my son from me, and I have voiced that repeatedly with workers. Who I feel in turn have become vindictive and punitive in their approach to Jett and myself..
As things now stand my visits are either canceled at the last minute, or abruptly cut short. Until recently, I was not allowed to talk with him on the phone., and now have weekly "contact calls" lasting 15-20 minutes. And on October 5, 2009, Jett suffered a near fatal chocking incident.
I am not now nor have I ever harmed my son. I am a single mom with life issues (i.e. housing, employment, child care, etc...) . I am poor and feel that that and the fact that I've already been judged for my life choices, is what is being used to seize my child from me. I love my son, and have always wanted and intend to make a better life for him. I want to be able to make major life decisions for my son's health and well being. I want to regain my life with my son so we can go on with our lives together, as a family. My son is my life and my whole world. I want my son now, and wanted him when I gave birth to him. I don't want my son to grow up thinking that he was adopted because he was unwanted or unloved. I want to raise my son and let him no he has a mother that loves him to no end and is fighting for him.
I am out numbered, out matched and can no longer fight this battle alone. I don't want to lose my son, He is my life, and my whole world, and it is shattered without him. I know we can make it from here as a family. I don't want him to grow up thinking that I didn't want or love him.
On February 11, 2010, we had the last of our "goodbye" visits. I do not want to wait until my son is 18, before we can be a family again. I want to regain custody of my son, and live out and share our lives together, as a family, as we once had been.
I am not now nor have I ever harmed my son. I am a single mom with life issues (i.e. housing, employment, child care, etc...) . I am poor and feel that that and the fact that I've already been judged for my life choices, is what is being used to seize my child from me. I love my son, and have always wanted and intend to make a better life for him. I want to be able to make major life decisions for my son's health and well being. I want to regain my life with my son so we can go on with our lives together, as a family. My son is my life and my whole world. I want my son now, and wanted him when I gave birth to him. I don't want my son to grow up thinking that he was adopted because he was unwanted or unloved. I want to raise my son and let him no he has a mother that loves him to no end and is fighting for him.
I am out numbered, out matched and can no longer fight this battle alone. I don't want to lose my son, He is my life, and my whole world, and it is shattered without him. I know we can make it from here as a family. I don't want him to grow up thinking that I didn't want or love him.
On February 11, 2010, we had the last of our "goodbye" visits. I do not want to wait until my son is 18, before we can be a family again. I want to regain custody of my son, and live out and share our lives together, as a family, as we once had been.
